(A blog from Christy Fehlen originally posted on www.agrowingfamily.wordpress.com)

So Moses is floating down the river to a life unknown.  How did he get there?  What circumstances led him to this defining moment?  Who could imagine that the life of this baby would eventually serve as the great liberator of his people?  The Bible devotes 1/8th of its pages to the story of Moses’ time.  Yet as I read of these powerful pages, I want to dissect each chapter.  The story is painful yet provides hope.

The details are vivid.   Mother and daughter assembling  a humble papyrus basket  coated with tar and pitch.  What conversations transpired during this?  How many other people were a part of it?   The depression, the grief, the fear the faith, all  the various emotions that encompassed this time were held in silence because they were in hiding.  The journey of grief and loss does not come with a timetable.  One never knows what will trigger it yet, they had no choice they had to move forward. They had to trust that God had a plan.  Without fan-fare they released what they held dear and waited for God’s supernatural intervention. 

What are you holding on to?  Do you have a dream that you have recently experienced slip away?  Maybe you have a child whom you are hoping will turn his heart back toward the Lord?  What is it that you feel so compelled to hold on to that you are paralyzed with fear to let go of? 

Releasing what one holds dear is agonizing yet provides freedom.  Loving with open hands as my friend Cindy likes to remind me.  If one is releasing something physically, the posture of the hand must remain open?   This mother when she released her child extended to him a life of opportunity and position.  She couldn’t have known that at the time, yet she walked in obedience and God honored her faithfulness.  When she released him into the open water, she had to push him out into the reeds.  Then she had to let go.  She pushed him into the river of unknown and she released him with open hands.

(A post from Christy Fehlen originally posted on www.agrowingfamily.wordpress.com

I have been reading about the life of Moses.  Starting prior to his birth.  It is surreal to me that even before he was born, his destiny was in the hands of God and those who feared Him. The hope of restoration and reconciliation rested in the birth of an unwanted child.  The Hebrew  people endured the threat of death and destruction everyday.  The bondage of slavery was real.    They were not in control of anything  including the well being of their own children.  Children born into a life of turmoil if they were given life at all.  The fate of the male children rested in the hands of the midwives.  The king had commanded that all Hebrew male children were to be put to death upon delivery.  Exodus 1:17- But the midwives  feared  God and did not do as the king of Egypt had commanded them, but let the boys live.  When questioned by the King, the midwives responded that Hebrew women are not like Egyptian woman, for they are vigorous , and they give birth before the midwife can get to them.  So God was good to the midwives and the people multiplied, and became very mighty.  And it came about because the midwives feared God, that He established households for them.

 It wasn’t like the threat of death and destruction ended there.  Good job midwives, here are families of your own to care for, now you are blessed.  No the adversity just intensified.  They were still being asked to do kill and destroy innocent lives. Yet they held strong to their faith and fear of God above all else.    What quiet and intense strength  they must have had.   It seems like God had  abandoned his people and left them to die a slow and painful existence yet you see his provincial hand upon these lives. How do you see beyond the years of slavery?  These midwives had faith to believe that God would not abandon them.  They had an inner drive that enabled them to think beyond themselves to future generations.  The face of adversity brought strength in numbers. 

This sets the stage for the birth of Moses.   A man from the house of Levi went and married a daughter of Levi.  The woman conceived and bore a son; and when she saw that he was beautiful, she hid him for three months.  Jochebed, the birth Mother of Moses is a hero.  To become pregnant with the understanding that if this child is a male, he will die unless she does something.  I love that it says when she saw that he was beautiful, she hid him for 3 months.  3 excruciating months.   I honestly question where my sanity would be. 

A few years ago I  watched a Mother give up a child whom she brought into this world.  It was a painful and difficult journey but she came to the place where she wanted to give this child something more.  She knew that because of her own circumstances she could not parent this little one, yet she still brought her into this world.  She will always be this child’s mother and forever this child will remember her.  Life had been so hard on this young Mom, she was scarred both physically and emotionally.  She just wanted someone to love her and be proud of her.  She gave the ultimate gift, she gave someone else an opportunity to love and parent her child. 

When I read the story of Moses I see a woman who bravely gave away a child so that He could have life. One that she hid for 3 months before releasing him into a basket to a new home and a new future.  My dear friends are awaiting adopting a beautiful little girl from China.  They are eagerly anticipating her arrival.  They long to give her a home where she can have a different life.  I am contending in prayer with them for her arrival, yet my heart can’t help but grieve for this mother who brought this beautiful little girl into the world.  No less significant or important in this little ones life.  One could not happen without the other.

(A post from Christy Fehlen originally posted at www.agrowingfamily.wordpress.com)

Adopting a child is on my list of things to do before I turn fifty.  I am 35 so I have a few years yet but I have recently had an awakening in my heart regarding adding to our family again.  I have no desire to give birth to another child and Joseph is thankful.  Pregnancy was extremely hard on our entire family.  And the farther removed we become from changing diapers the more I think this is a crazy idea.  A few friends  have recently adopted or are awaiting  clearance for a child to become on paper legally theirs.  The waiting process is taxing on ones mind and spirit.  You feel as if your heart will be ripped in two.   Some of my friends  desperately want to be a parent but the struggles of infertility have stopped them from giving birth to a child.  My heart is sad  for them.   The Bible is filled with relationship heart aches.  Stories of infertility, children born out of infidelity, abandonment and adoption.  My hope is that as I focus  my thoughts  I will be renewed in my passion to wait when things are difficult and contend for answers during those  moments that seem as if time is standing still.

The past two years I have seen families torn apart by difficult choices.  I have seen addictions take the upper hand and cloud the priorities of those held captive by them.  I have watched a mother grieve as she recognized that she could not parent the child she brought into the world.   I have seen children whose innocence has been robbed and the cycle continues.   Sometimes I am left with more questions than answers.  Why God, would one couple long for a baby for years and another cast aside the one she has because she is consumed with her own needs? 

Two summers ago I set up a tent in my backyard. I pitched my tent out of sheer frustration and faith.  The Old Testament is filled with testimonies of those waiting for an answer.  An altar was built and the wait began, literally.   A prayer of deliverance was lifted up and the wait continued. I was waiting for our foster parent licensing to become official.  I had dotted all the I’s and crossed all the T’s.  I sent in more paperwork than necessary and yet the process was not without bumps.  Please resubmit this form.  We are sorry to inform you that we need you to fill this out again, we have temporarily miss-placed it.  I filled out the same background check five times.  I angered a lot of office workers  in the process because I would call everyday to check on the progress.  I got in touch with someone working for the State Legislature and for a few days things were really moving.  I knew that action would bring about results.  It did not.  All it brought was more time to wait.   I was emotional.   It took nearly 6 months for our license to become complete.  When I look back on that, it really was not all that long, yet when I was going through it, time seemed to stand still. 

The past two years have brought a whole new set of questions spurred on by the lives of 8 foster children and the biological families and multiple others whom I have become  connected with thanks to the world of foster care.  I have watched children weep as a parent made a choice that in turn affected them.  I have watched parents battle with addictions that kept them teetering back in forth.  One step forward, two steps back.  I have watched the disappointment when things did not go the way all had hoped .  I have also experienced broken families reunited.  Making a new story for themselves as they forge ahead, one day at a time.  Waiting….for how some of the stories will turn outh as caused some serious anxiety on my part.  It has also kept me in a perpetual state of dependency on God.  I can’t fix each of the families but I can pray for deliverance and strength for each of them and for myself.   

Waiting allows us time to pray and believe for things beyond ourselves.  A prayer of deliverance, a prayer of expectation, a prayer of peace, a prayer of faith, a prayer of reconciliation, a prayer of hope.  As much as I hate the waiting, I can’t live without it.  I pitched my tent and God revealed himself to me in ways I could not explain or expect.  The questions keep coming…and I get upset when I don’t have the answers but the leading and longing are always the same.  Go pitch a tent, and see what God  will do.

Steering Through Chaos: Mapping a Clear Direction for Your Church in the Midst of Transition and Change covers the all-too-familiar experiences pastors go through when dealing with changes that occur in ministry. Whether it’s staff transitions, new buildings or congregational growth, author and pastor Scott Wilson gives practical and encouraging advice to help leaders navigate these tough waters. Having pastored for more than 20 years, and currently leading a congregation that is experiencing exponential growth, Wilson has a lot of material to draw from.

One premise making this read unique from other change-management books is that the author recommends you, as the leader, be the initiator of, not the reactor to, change. While it may seem counterintuitive, the author provides some practical advice on how to create change yourself when your church is doing well—not when it starts to decline—so that your congregation may experience even greater growth.

Another area that makes this read different than other business or management books on change theory is the Pentecostal/theological perspective of the author. He offers practical advice, but does not sidestep the spiritual endeavors that need to take place when dealing with change and chaos. He balances the two very well.

The book includes another nice touch—10 vignettes from other pastors and leaders highlight the topic and give another vantage point for readers. The author also provides helpful questions and group discussion topics at the end of each chapter, which will assist pastors in analyzing and implementing the book’s principles in their own settings.

Scott Wilson does not negate the pain that occurs when a church goes through change. But he does give the reader hope, a plan, and numerous practical and spiritual nuggets to navigate through the stress. I, for one, have already implemented a couple of his concepts into my ministry.

(orginally posted at http://foursquare.org/articles/1242,1.html)

Taco Palm Sunday made it into an article Foursquare did on Easter called ‘Missing the Point of Easter?’

‘Most believers won’t be inviting non-Christian friends to Easter services this year, according to a new Barna report. We asked a sampling of Foursquare pastors what they thought about the subject, and how they view Easter weekend in their churches.’

Check it out here.

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